My Growing To Due List

I have entered my 2nd trimester! I expect to be surged with energy, wake up to a stomach not in knots and feel so much better with each day. Everyday I wake up mad that this isn't the case. I wake up bladder full, stomach screaming for food though nothing sound good and all I want to do is sleep. Energy!, who has energy. I thought this would be a breeze compared to the last 13 weeks but no breeze. I do, however, have a 14 week long list of to dues. 14 weeks of house cleaning, laundry, dishes, left over food in the frig., paper work, bills all piling up on me. Each week I put off buying groceries until my husband reluctantly offers to go shopping for me. I then feel terrible and get off my butt and go to the store. This weekend I took five bags of laundry to my parents house, to save me 25 $ and save my sanity. Because nothing would drive me crazier then walking 8 loads of laundry up and down my stairs. Like I said I'm still tired all the time so multiple trips up and down the stairs is beyond overwhelming. Since I finally cleared the bedroom full of clothes, I thought I'd try to clean the rest of the house today. We'll see how I do.

My other growing list is things to buy list. Baby things, Things for our place which we still don't have, new clothes (since nothing fits) and then there's the presents for upcoming babyshowers and bridalshowers. I hate lists! I try not to think about the things to buy list, it's a little overwhelming to think of this list.
Thank God, He gives us nine months to prepare for all this. And thank God for family because if my cleaning list is like it is now, my mom is so going to be cleaning house before this little one comes.

Bra and Undies

I have always been one of those less fortunate girls when it comes to my upper half. I started wearing under wire bras at like 16 because the wireless bras would make me look like Madonna in the 80's. I'm used to being able to find my size anywhere, and being able to get a bra for like 10$ at Target. As most of you know I got married a little over a year ago. This means I got an abundance of beautiful, sexy bras and matching underwear. All of which i can no longer wear. Those beauties just sit in my lingerie drawer tainting me. After a week of wearing a sports bra (because none of my beauties fit), my loving mother took me bra shopping. I had no idea of what size my "new" upper half would be, so i got to try on thirty or more different bras. I heard that pregnant and nursing women shouldn't wear under wires. At first I fears this lack of wire support. That is until I tried on my now purchased bra. The moment I put it on I realized the wonderfulness of grandma bras. It felt like supportive silk. It lifted and supported all without cutting into my side, hurting my ribs. The top of the bra comes up to my neck and the straps are thinker then a tank top but who cares, it's like heaven to the girls. If your pregnant or not married, forget those low cut, sexy, push-ups. Granny bras all the way!!!

The bottom, no half! Now most of my underwear still fits but this doesn't mean that my butt hasn't been doing it's own growing.
True story... Josh and I live in an apartment where it costs 3$ to do a load of laundry, this of course means I have a pile of clothes that pregnant me just doesn't want to wash. I told you this so you would understand my underwear dilemma. Pregnant me is so over sexy underwear but yesterday I had all of two pairs of underwear clean and both were not the comfortable ones. I pick out the one I thought would be more comfortable. A hot red, lacy number. I had a little bit of a hard time getting them past my thick thighs. I tried to pretend that they weren't way too small. So I left them on, me and Josh went on a walk to look at some furniture down the street. The too tight underwear were so far up my butt half-way there that I was begging Josh to let me take them off right there in the street. He didn't let me. Pulling red, lace underwear out from under my skirt, while cars drive by would of been pretty bad. But at this point I so didn't care. I made it home, picking my weg all the way. Before the apartment door shut behind me those underwear were at my ankles. I now know just how big my butt is And it's scary.

The can't haves

My favorite way to relax is a hot, hot bath and a glass of white wine. It's warm peacefulness that fills me with calm. Let me tell you a lukewarm bath and glass of water.... just not the same.

When you find out your pregnant you think no more drinking and smoking, I can do that, no problem. Then you find out all the other things you also can't do. Like sushi, which I love. Or hot baths, that's right. The heat can be to much on you and the baby. This is probably the hardest thing for me to give up. In fact, I think I'm flirting with the line right now in a more warm, then lukewarm bath. The things parents give up for their children. It starts now and I think the list just starts growing larger once the baby comes. Like sleep and your boobs, those won't be mine anymore all the baby's. I think being a mom is gonna be way different then I thought.

Symptoms or the Side effects

We have all seen the commercials on tv, they promise if you take this pill whatever illness you have will go away, but toward the end of the commercial they list off for ten minutes all the possible side effects, death usually being one of them. When I see these, I think to myself, why take the pill at all. The side effects are worse then the symptoms. This is no longer a commercial I watched but my life.

Everyone tells you during pregnancy you have to go to the bathroom ALOT. And, I did. I wake up in the middle of the night, every night, and use the poody. My husband says it this way, every night I hurl myself out of bed, throw open the door, slam on the light switch and flop on the towelette seat. ( I don't like waking up just to pee). But I thought this was just normal preg stuff. Then, my last trip to the doctor I found out it wasn't just normal preg stuff I had a UTI (urinary track infection). No big deal the doctor gave me a prescription and I sent my husband off to fill it. My husband comes back with a little pill bottle and 33 $ less in our account. Stupid pricey pills.

Well, here is where all the fun begins. That night I take the pill, no thought about it. The next morning I wake up just a little more dizzy then usual. I got up took another pill and eat something. Well, mid morning I had to use the bathroom, not to pee this time. OH, my gosh!!! I never wanted to poop again. While going I had this lovely ache in my back and I was on there awhile. The smell, oh, my. Afterward I sat on my couch wanting to cry, my back still hurting and something else burning. So then I thought is this from my prescription??? I went to the three pages of symptoms they gave me and started reading. " gas, headache, loss of appetite, mild diarrhea, or nausea. Also dizziness, drowsiness" For me the "or" was bull I have ALL of them. and the word mild, if this is mild I never want spicy.

Sorry, about my bluntness, as I said on face book this is my place to vent. And I did tell my husband all about this. In fact I called him not long after this experience.

So, moral of the story is read the side effects before taking the medicine and it may be better to not take the prescription at all. Peeing in the middle of the night is annoying, but not as annoying as being stuck at home because your afraid of having to use anyone elses restroom.

Midnight and I'm not sleeping

I'm 12 wks pregnant today and so tired. In fact I have been tired since before I found out that I was pregnant. Even though It's midnight, I can't sleep. Every time I lay down I feel like all the food I ate HOURs ago is just sitting at the middle of my throat, just hoping to come out. I'm not one of those vomiters during pregnancy. No, instead i just burp and feel like I need to run to the towelette, never really needing it. So here I am so tired, knowing that I have class at 8 tomorrow morning and there is nothing I can do. Nothing but wait for my food to hit my stomach so I can lay down without burping it up every five seconds.